Curious..

So curious.. when fun will actually come back into my life, the old happiness, people change, things in life change but where has my life gone to? I feel like its all disappeared into the open air into tiny little droplets that keep drifting, those little bits that dissolve and I'll never find again... Things happen for reasons, but this is just really not good, what lesson is it trying to teach me? Is it karma did I do something to someone to get this back? Hmm.